December 2010
24 posts
“Some men stand and fight for all that they desire, while others give up and...”
To my pitiful excuse for a best friend. I've had...
Sometimes you can feel so hurt by someone you thought cared about you that it leaves you feeling so broken. It hurts so bad knowing that someone you care about can break you to the point where you don’t want to even get up anymore, that you want to just stop breathing all together. They can make you feel so worthless, like a toy that’s only played with when someone else wants a go....
A Perfect Moment
(this is somewhat of a prelude to Whispers of Fate)
Now and again you find yourself in a single moment that is in every way shape and form perfect. So perfect in fact that you would never want to forget that moment to the point where it becomes ingrained in your heart for as long as you live.
There are many moments in my life that I would give all I had to relive, to have the chance to savour...
Leaving.
Ever since I was little I knew I wasn’t like other people, there was something in me that separated my desires from all those around me. I just never had that attachment to things or people. That’s not to say that I don’t want what most people want out of life. Sure I do, I want to fall in love, I want to get married and have kids. But that’s where I guess a line is drawn....
Whispers of Fate
It’s been a very long time now since I believed in fate and destiny. But sometimes some things happen that seem far too coincidental to be just by chance and it only seems fitting to think that some other force had played it’s part. I think fate wanted that day to be ours, just not in the most conventional way.
I drove away from your street, wondering how long it would be before I...
Happy Holidays
Says it all really, and a happy new year.
Thanks for all the messages
Enjoy.
Emotional Tide.
Sometimes we as people, as human beings, as emotional animals do things that go beyond our call of duty as societal creatures. Some say human emotion is the weakest part of our being, yet every choice and every move we make in this chess game we have come to define as life is a result of those emotions that supposedly make us weak. If emotion defines everything we do and as a result make us weak,...
Music, Art & Literature
All of those are great tools of expression, inspiration and hope. I think every man, woman and child needs to associate him or her self with either one or many of those things. For sanity, for expression of emotion, for a release and for an escape from the trials and tribulations of life. From many a heartache that will descend on you throughout your life and from the realm of reality that may...
My words.
I’m sorry about my outburst, but I was just blinded by a fit of rage. Though I’m not the kind of guy that puts his fists through a wall, I express it in words, I write it all down and when I’m done I close the book on it. My words don’t intend on hurting people. They’re written, but never spoken.
See words hold a certain beauty, you can write what you think without...
Beyond the blurred lines of love and hate.
I’m sorry, but I really can’t deal with this. I loved you once. More than I had ever loved anyone ever before. I cared for you so much to the point where I would have done anything for you. I was always there for you, I tried to help, I wanted you to open up to me. But the harder I tried the more you pushed me away, to the point where you broke my heart just because you thought you had...
No Apologies
I am who I am take me as I am or don’t take me at all. I am the guy who who will happily hold your hand through any pain that you must endure. I am the guy who will always appreciate all the smalls things you do, from the little smile you give me when you think I’m dreaming to the “x” you place at the end of every message. I am the guy who keeps stupid things like coasters...
The end of an addiction
For a long time now I’ve felt as though I needed you in my life almost as much as I needed my next breath. It was as though I needed you more than I needed for my heart to beat. In fact it was as though you were my heart, you were the very substance of my being. The very air I inhaled. Maybe that in itself was the very fabric of love that intertwined our lives. But much like cloth over time...
www.august-is-open.tumblr.com
So, I’ve set up the page, feel free to share your problems, I’ve made it so that anyone can volunteer advice, I’m here to help. So follow, share, post.
I get a lot of messages saying that people can relate to the things I write about, or that my posts often reflect what people are going through. I just wanted to say that I’m glad that my posts can help people make sense of things, or that I can make them feel less alone. I wanted to ask if I was to go about setting up a page where people could anonymously or openly share their problems, or...
A cold wind
I like to stand out in the cold, I like to feel the bitterness of cold on my skin, especially when I have no fight left in me. I like to stand there in the cold and reflect on my life as it is, and I wait patiently, diligently awaiting that bitter cold wind, awaiting for it to strike my face with a force that’s oh so strong. When it does I’m filled with the euphoria of watching all the...
When I strike a chord with you, I mean not for it to play a single note but I mean to intoxicate you with notes that resinate so strong that they hang on you like branches on a tree.
A close call, just not close enough
I was almost run over today, a closer call than I’ve ever had, the car managed to graze my knee. But I wonder ‘what if…’ I had stepped off of that curb just a second earlier. Something in me doubts I would have lived, a greater something in me wishes it so. It wishes, no, yearns for peace. A peace I cannot seem to find in an earthly existence.
I just want to be freed from...
Your love was meant to be forever, I just never expected it to ever be disposable.
Nice guys finish last, pt 2.
Being a nice guy is just who I am, but the sad reality is that sometimes, there are people out there who know it and take advantage. The problem is that I’m too nice to ever say no.
So when there’s someone who will only come to me for comfort when they need it, I’ll be there for them even though I know when I’m in need they will be nowhere to be found. People who will...
The embodiment of change.
It’s weird how only a week ago I watched as the last few leaves blew away from the tree that gave them life into the wind. Now, now these trees that once gave life are decorated with a thick layer of snow, resting peacefully on the branches, making the inhabitance of life but a completely baron concept. I guess it’s just the physical embodiment of change, reminding us that change is...
Nice guys finish last.
I’m not trying to write well, I’m not trying to be eloquent, not in this post. I just want to make it clear that nice guys do exist, how do I know? I know because I am one.
See when I smile at a stranger it’s because I know sometimes a small gesture such as that can make a persons day. When I offer a friend, colleague or even someone I just met at a bar a ride home it’s...