January 2010
11 posts
decisions... decision... decision...
It’s funny how one seemingly insignificant event can lead to something so grand that it’s beyond comprehension. If you’re familiar with the butterfly effect, by which I don’t mean the movie, more the scientific theory. Which suggests that something as small and meaningless as the flutter of a butterflies wings can spark off a series of events that can ultimately cause a...
Every now and again, this titan of incredible strength weilding uncontrolable anger engulfs me, I become blinded by rage, and it makes me run far away from everything, everyone. It’s only when it passes, when this beast flees, I see again, and see the damage I’ve caused by leaving, sometimes it’s beyond repair. And I have no excuse, I have no reason, I can just say I’m...
The Stolen Sunlight...
Today I officially moved back home, back in with the parents. It’s a sacrifice I was willing to make to help out my sister-in-law. Even though it’s the most backward step I could’ve possibly taken.
I’m a lot like a flower (it sounds gay now, but keep reading), flowers grow, they bloom, but moving back to my parents, it’s like placing a flower into the shade, into my...
Today I stumbled upon a friendship band that one of my friends once made me, I remember it like yesterday, I was 6, sat on the old rusty swing set in my front garden, she came running up all excited, and she asked me to close my eyes and hold my hands out. When I opened them I saw a black bit of string with lettered beads that spelt out her name.
I can’t remember why I no longer wear it,...
The black and white truth
Most of us shy away from the lives we lead, mundane, lifeless existances, a pathetic meaningless life. We are surrounded by fucking cracks that couldn’t even spell their own names. We work in places we dislike, hate even. We’re forced to converse with these lifeless drones of mass produced bull crap. Who are all too ready to exchange smiles and before your back is fully turned you...
A Flooded Heart, A Drowned Soul...
I’ve always loved being near water, no matter if it was a gentle stream, or a stormy sea, as long as it was a open body of water I’d be happy. I’ve spent countless hours of my life sitting on beaches starring into the sea, starring deep into the distant horizon, to me it’s like peering right into my soul. Water is my element.
When I was younger I’d try to fool...
I finally got round to filling in the “about me” bit on my tumblr page. So what do you guys think?
So i’ve added the “ask” button, so feel free to ask anything regarding my posts. Or even use it as a way of commenting, either way I don’t mind.
Laundry Day
Today had to undoubtably be one of the toughest days I’ve ever had, granted it is not the best start to 2010, however today means I can finally put a close to a somewhat difficult chapter of my life. It means I can finally move on. And I suppose if anything, today’s hardship will ultimately give her the justice she deserved, and give me a the closure I’ve been yearning for the...
Behind that Smile and the First Left After the...
I’m pretty big on bottling things up, it’s just how I’ve always dealt with things. I don’t tend to talk about stuff with people, and certainly do not like to lean on people for support. And on most occasions I will put on a front to cover how I’m really feeling. I’ll laugh and joke when I’m at my weakest, I’ll smile when I’m most scared. But...
Thank you all
So it’s 2010, so I ought to start with saying happy new year to all of you that follow me, albeit a belated one, but I’ve just about recovered enough to adequately use my computer. Anyhow just posting to say thanks to all of you guys who have been reading, reblogging and liking my posts, it means a lot to me. Thanks also for the lovely comments, it’s amazing to know people like...